Stumbling Towards Meaning

Well, here I am Gentle Viewers! (cookie to those who can name the reference)

So I finally have a blog. Ha. Weird. I know I already have a myspace, but this is slightly different. It's sort of funny, because pretty much the motivation for getting a blog was not only to post my thoughts, but at first just to have somwhere to post my last.fm account to show you dudes what I've been listening to. Today has been sort of a metal mood, listened to the classic Master of Puppets. MAN, it really takes me back to high school. Ripped jeans, bad attitude, and video games. No, it wasn't the 80s, and actually, not much has changed since then. I still have ripped jeans, I can have a bad attitude at times, especially when it involves authority of any kind and the oppresive forces of the world that at times feel out of my hands. And well, I still have a deep love for video games in my heart, but the gaming is at an all-time low, because I didn't bring my Gamecube with me, and just my Gameboy Advance SP, and played the occasional Zelda: Oracle of Seasons or Mario Kart. But it doesn't quite fill that thirst for gaming like staring at the idiot box with a full-fledged controller in my mits. But I digress...

So things have been extremely different for me ever since I left for Europe last September. Just a whirlwind of change uprooting everything stable in my life and taking me on one adventure after another, for good or ill. Right now I am in Portland. My time in the Northwest has had its ups and downs certainly...

Pros:
*Spending everyday with the love of my life, Kim
*Visiting Seattle and having the best coffee of my life at Lighthouse Coffee
*Downloading all sorts of music and rekindling my love of Metal & Punk
*Meeting all sorts of different people
*Just the sheer experience of living somwhere completely different

Cons:
*Broke as all hell, sometimes eating only rice and potatoes
*Rain EVERY FUH-REEKING DAY!!!
*Job situation being unstable
*All of this having an impact on a new relationship

So yeah, that's a peek into what's been going on, without even going into depth about the saga of jobs at Cirque du Soleil, Wells Fargo, and Blockbuster. But there's no point delving too far into the murk of my Portland life. I started this to look to the future, and reflect on the present. So here's how it stands at present:

* I don't have a job...BUT thankfully tax return will be arriving shortly...

* I DO have a fun film-type gig in the beginning stages. It's with a improv-comedy group that wants someone to film their shows and film project. I went to their show last Friday, and it was a lot of fun. Mucho good energy and excitement, and it really made me miss the improv days of J.A.S.S.S. in high school (R.I.P. Steven O'Farrell) They want to rehearse and pitch ideas around on Thursday, and then go out and film the thing on Saturday! Now there's some good turn-around! It would be great to work with these guys and get something good and post-graduation on my film reel.

* I DO have a phone interview on Thursday @ 5p.m. for the job of Tech Camp Counselor for the Summer. So I might be back in Texas this Summer. And that's pretty cool and exciting. I miss all my peeps.

So things are slowly in motion for me, gearing up towards something more than day jobs and the day-to-day hustle. Lost of plans and ideas in my head, but I will keep those private for now, until they take full form. For now this update and status-check will have to do for you all, my Gentle Viewers.

P.S. One more thing, Proof of D12 died the other day. I was saddened by this, as I thought he was one of the better MCs from the group and quite enjoyed his raps. So R.I.P Proof.